at times where covid-19 is looming in all parts of the world, it is important to humanise this society. we all are in search of things which benefit us the most during coco v and we end up blaming others for not seeking a satisfactory verdict. our mind has created labels for everyone like ‘that person is black’ ‘that person is gay’ or ‘that person is straight’ but behind all of this we forget the sole purpose of our existence. we tend to forget how behind all these labels that we have created, there is a human. for those who don’t know about all the student movements that are currently taking place, we have forgotten that we all are humans. In these movements we have dehumanized others. the other day i was solving a past paper and was reviewing it when i heard the news of caies being postponed. during all of this time, some of the people who are close to me know how much I prepared for this and what I had to go through. during those weeks, I could sense a red flag hovering over me but each day I realised dat the only way possible is to find dat hope. we end up sensing covid-19 at all various places but we never sense dat hope that is always looming with us , probably not close but not far too. at that moment, everything felt unreal to me. as if the past month, that I spend was nothing. as if all those days where i had to study after suhoor were meaningless. and then it all went out and I started crying. i cried for like almost 1 and a half hour, to let all the frustration out and I had to eventually stop because of iftari.
eventhough my brothers were like : root afza pi loun kuch nahi hota hai
but that rooh afza which always made me happy when I was lil didn’t mattered ab
and then I saw these movements taking place and it’s been two days since I received that news and I have realised that our society has disintegrated into different groups.
students supporting for ‘teacher assessed grades’
students supporting for cancelling exams
students criticising the government for passing unjust decisions
I think I was the one from the third group but over these days I have realised that the government and all the authorities too are humans, we tend to forget it (ik I am repeatedly saying this but for a reason). we all are going through a rough time, it is hard to sometimes hold on things, it is hard to expect people to be always with you. even though, my caies have been postponed in October/November but I know that I can’t change it and it is best to understand that it is okay sometimes when others pass out decisions which might look unfair at that moment but it is even more unjust to dehumanise them.
and now I would like to quote something which someone close to me once said:
helplessness is a cursed feeling
it really is.