The thing which hurts the most at this time is how coco v has ruined everything. I am suffering through a stage, where I consider all online platforms to be one of my worst enemies(except for WordPress) but I can’t get rid of them. All the online classes/ revisions are conducted there, so even when I really desire to deactivate everything, I can’t.
Although, at first I felt 2020 to be the most ‘learning year’ for me, it looks like that 2021, will defo leave me with all the life lessons. The first three months of this year has taught me more than the entire 2020.
Most importantly, I learnt about constantly dealing with all the struggles. I know, I used to always remind myself about how ‘human beings are meant to be survivors’, but sometimes, stress could overburden you to that extent where you feel like giving up. Where you feel like, that you are not striving for the real purpose. Where you feel like, that you have alienated yourself. There were days where I felt like, I will tackle most of the things, though my perception about things kept on changing everyday, Sometimes, I considered myself to be happy with people, other times, I felt lonely and depressed.
Problems need not be measured, I think , that the most depressing thing about our society is how people consider these ‘teenage problems’ as some kind of fakery. They don’t believe in prioritising mental health,
It is difficult, to shut down all the account, because unfortunately covid has forced us to rely on all of this, Though, one thing I learnt for sure, was that even when you know that there are people who love you/ will always be there for you, but at that time, their constant support to deal with your problems feels like ‘toxic positivity’ . It feels like, that they are just ‘simply meaningless words’.
and all you want is, to alienate yourself and to feel that you no longer belong with these people.
saw the post of some of the a-level students campaigning for ‘No CAIES’ , felt like all of their reasons were legitimate enough to be taken into concern, though but sadly most people don’t know what students are going thru in this heart-rending times.
came across a video, and saw a comment, wanted to share with you all too.